grieving

middle of the night cries are very sad.  the little boy who hugs readily, gives surprise kisses, and now uses "wheee!" appropriately for fun is very different from the little boy who cries in the night.  he doesn't want picked up.  he usually doesn't want me, and he certainly isn't crying for daddy either.  it was a peepee diaper that woke hudson up, but the grieving cry is oh so sad, and makes me cry too.  i held hudson for an hour and a half one night in the recliner, both of us not sleeping.  i eventually laid us both down on the couch, hudson laying on top of me uncomfortably, and we managed to get a little sleep.