Yep, I've been quiet. I haven't had anything to say. I'm used to being the boss. I'm the one who usually tells others about how long they'll have to wait. As much as I really don't like it, sometimes you just have to shut up and wait.
If I wasn't doing this (waiting for an adoption referral for our child in Taiwan), I have no clue what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. Not a clue! People ask me, "What about other programs?" I look at other adoption programs and shake my head no. This one's it. This is for us. It just isn't moving at the speed of my expectations. If God wants me to be doing something else with my life, I need a bigger sign... because I'm not seeing it.
Thought for the day: Kevin and I met face-to-face at a movie theater. For the Hoosiers in the audience, it was at the United Artists Galaxy 14 on 96th Street in Indianapolis on a very windy day in March 1998. I showed up about 15 minutes early. Had my hair all done, clothes and makeup just right... I was ready to meet this guy that I had talked to on the phone. I waited, and I waited, and I waited. I was so mad, so sad. I thought I had been stood up. I almost left the theater so many times, but I waited. And... he finally came... 45 minutes late! We missed our movie time for Jackie Chan's "Mr. Nice Guy" and went to McDonald's across the street until it was time for the next showing.
What would have happened in my life if I hadn't waited?
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That is a beautiful story! I think that you could be a public speaker or speech writer! It sounds like a sermon about true love! Vonne Barnett
ReplyDeleteFunny, my eyes teared up when I read the last sentence. Sometimes God gives you the same lessons over and over till you get it or stick your head in an oven...(sorry, that just came out!)
ReplyDeleteAll I ever wanted in life was to be a mom. From the moment I got married I was sure I was ready. I waited, I lost a baby, I waited. Three and a half years later I was blessed with a beautiful baby girl. She was worth it! I thought one would do it, I told God that all I would ever ask him for was one healthy baby That was before I had one. Then, I wanted more. I lost three, I waited. I gave up. 7 years later I had a miracle happen, a baby boy joined our family. I was content, I was happy. I was no longer waiting, 22months later, another baby boy joined our family. I laughed. I think God laughed too.
While waiting God's timing seems rediculous. In retrospect, God's timing couldn't be more perfect. I proimise you one day you'll feel the same way. (but it's ok if right now you want to send a rude hand gesture my way, I've been there!)
Look at Miss Sarah comin' on with the good stuff!
ReplyDeleteYou are doing exactly what you should do. If you do not feel "led" to move, stay right where you are. I think when people ask you if you are looking into other programs, its because they really want this to happen for you NOW! They love you and are trying to help.
This post has let us all know that you are O.K.:)
Glad you are willing to stick it out! You won't be sorry.
Andrea
You wouldn't have gotten to spend your first date with Kevin's mom!! :-)
ReplyDeleteYou are so right though ... waiting can be a good thing sometimes. When it happens it will make it even more special and the hurt and pain will go away. Of course there will be more waiting, but you will be extra busy getting ready.
Extra hug to you today!!
Good, good stuff!
ReplyDeleteSo, I have to ask... what was Kevin's excuse? ;-)
Tisra
Sara S., Smart ass.
ReplyDeleteTisra, Kevin's mom came with us on our first date. Well, we can't leave out his brother and his brother's best friend too. They were all going to the movie and I was joining them. A blind date can't be that scary if his mother is coming along, right? Right. Anyway, I don't know what happened... but something with the brother and the friend got delayed and held up the whole group.
Thanks for the laugh today. I hope you got one out of it too. :-)
ReplyDeleteOoooooh... now that gave me chills!!! Good ones. :) And you will look back someday on this adoption wait and think the same thing you do about waiting for Kevin to show up. Keep doing what you know is right. God will guide.
ReplyDeleteLove, Rebecca
Nice to see you are okay. I love your post. I am a firm beliver in the "what if I hadn't waited" moments, and sometimes it takes many years to even figure out why you had to wait so long, but in my experience every wait that I've been through blessed my life in ways unexplainable. You are on the right track here, just keep running at that steady pace and the finish line WILL come soon. Just know that we are all in the stands cheering you on until it comes! You should be getting a box from me soon.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you,
Janalee
Sarah, what a great post! I know we will look back at our wait and hopefully be able to see what happened, how we grew, how we learned, did we listen to the right thing. Sometimes I think God has something extra for us and if we move to fast we miss that bonus. A beautiful post. I know it's hard, I really do. We waited 7 years for our first son. And look at the people you've touched with your Blogovers. She will come, and she will be perfect.
ReplyDeleteDede and I are so glad that you are patient and that you waited!
ReplyDeleteGod will bless your waiting and trust. Stay true to sweet Hannah. I think of you often as I too often wonder where we would be if we had not waited. I may borrow this thought from my blog if you don't mind.
ReplyDeleteGreat post Sarah! You know I'm all about new perspectives on waiting. I have a feeling that God read your blog (ok, maybe your mind instead... not sure if God is a blogger!) and He said "AHA! Finally, she is getting the idea." Then He said, "Since she gets it now, I shall send forth her referral". Well, something like that, I hope!
ReplyDeleteRight now - before you forget - print it out and put it on your fridge, your computer, and in Hannah's baby book. That sums it up sister. Good for you. Amy and the gang
ReplyDeleteI was right there not too long ago. When we had to do our homestudy update, we even asked about other programs. We talked about it and said no. And if we hadn't waited we would be staring at beautitful pictures of Claire. And soon you will looking at pictures of Miss Hannah Claire. It's tough, people would ask us the same questions over and over again, even pulling me over to the computer so they could show us their agency, and the country they adopted through(b/c it didn't take as long of course). But you know what those same people that suggested that we change countries gave me a "good for you for waiting" once they saw pictures of our daughter. Soon...it's coming soon.
ReplyDeleteWow... I'm so behind on my back blog reading. This post was amazing! I am a bit type A myself... and this wait has taught me so much. But when something is meant to happen, it's worth waiting.
ReplyDeleteI think of you daily and can't wait for the day soon where I read those words.
xoxo